well, i went back to a meeting for the first time in weeks today... and i lost! a whole .2, lol. but, considering i haven't been tracking, going to meetings, or even eating particularly well, i was just hoping i didn't gain more than 5, so a loss is awesome! i am really close to 40 lbs lost too (37). that just sounds like so much to me, so i hope to get there soon and it will motivate me to keep going!

classes start tomorrow, so i will have less time to go to the gym and plan out my meals meticulously, but i'm only taking 12 credits so i won't have TOO much less time. anyway, just wanted to check in and update.

i had orientation for something today and we ended up at a pub for lunch, so i had chicken fingers. with ranch. probably not the best choice, but i was full for the rest of the day, so hopefully not too much damage.

we'll see the damage from the last month at weigh in on wednesday. ahhh- i'm scared. i was so close to 40 lbs lost and now it'll be awhile until i get there i fear. oh well- i'll get there someday. SOON.

breakfast= oatmeal, vitamuffin top (4 pts)

i went to the gym, but after about 7 minutes on the elliptical i felt like i was going to faint. i'm not sure why, i ate about 2 hours before i left and actually ate more than i did yesterday, yet i felt like i do when i don't eat enough before working out. maybe it was because i had to walk half a mile there in the heat, and then the gym itself is broiling hot? yesterday i got a machine in front of a fan, but today i couldn't. either way, i'm disappointed i didn't get more exercise in, but i'd rather not faint at the gym.

on the way home i grabbed a light caramel frappuncino and immediately felt better. a venti is only 4 points too. good to know for the future!

if it doesn't rain this afternoon, i'm thinking about going up to union square and looking at puppies at petco! i love puppies and i really REALLY want one, but i don't think it's a good time right now... still, i can't help tempting myself. (by the way, when i say puppies, i don't mean actual puppies, just a dog. i'd want one at least a year or two.) anway, it would be about a 2 mile walk round trip, which would make me feel better about this morning. however, forecast says rain, so we'll see! either way, i'm on track with my points, so no harm.

ah, finally. i haven't been able to access blogspot all night for some reason.

well, today went well. i met all my goals from yesterday. i was only able to stay on the elliptical for about 20 minutes which kind of disappointed me, but at least i went to the gym. also, it's about a mile walk roundtrip to even get to my gym, so at least i did a little more than just the 20 minutes.

by the way, my gym got all new equipment over the summer! it is very fancy now. every machine has a tv, a fan, and an ipod hookup. i didn't use any of them today, but i'm sure i will in the future.

well, i have a baked potato ready to be eaten so i'm signing off for now. same goals for tomorrow, and maybe subtract the mid-day trip to the bakery around the corner (i tracked it, but still!)

i live in new york city, and i need to lose weight.

for a little background: i am 23 and 8 months ago i was pushing 300 pounds. since then, i have joined weight watchers and lost 30+, but in the last few months, fallen off the wagon a bit. i am committed to doing this and maintaining it. i hope this blog will help be one of the tools to hold me accountable.

so, to begin:
tomorrow, i will go back to the gym.
tomorrow, i will not buy ice cream or junk food on the way home.
i will eat oatmeal and fruit for breakfast.
i will not buy ice cream at gristedes for the 3rd time this week.
i will track my points.

here we go.