Weigh in today = up .4 lbs. I guess that's what happens when you binge for the first half of the week. I looked back through my booklet and since July 22 I've lost exactly .8 lbs. Going the right direction, but still, I'm disappointed because I know I could have done better. Ever since then I've been gaining and losing the same 2 lbs. It needs to stop now.

I did my running today, officially done with week 1 of C25k. Will do day 2 in Phoenix, as long as I can still get in my parents' gym on their membership!

OK, just to update. It is now almost 8 pm and I am officially out of points for the day. I came home from the office with 7 left, less than ever before I'm sure... had a lean cuisine and a skinny cow. Now I just need to make sure no snacking before bed.

I think I need to blog more about my eating habits since I've been feeling a little out of control lately. I've managed to contain it pretty well this week, but it's a constant struggle, especially in the hours between when I get home for the day and restaurants/the grocery store close.

I've already learned not to keep the foods I want to binge on in my apartment. But with the grocery store being a mere 3 block walk away, it's easy for me to decide I want something and be at the store buying it before I really know what's happening. I also manage to convince myself occasionally that because I have to walk to get it, it's somehow better! Obviously, though, walking 6 blocks does not make up for eating a box of brownies (my recent binge of choice).

Well, one thing I'm trying now is to eat more, earlier in the day so I'm not hungry when I get home. For instance, yesterday, I had to be in my journal office working for an hour, then class for 2 hours, then 2 more hours at the office. All I ate beforehand was breakfast (oatmeal and a WW muffin). So, I was starved when I got home and even though I ate (a lean cuisine and later some popcorn and snacks), I kept thinking about going to just buy a box of brownies and eat them all. I didn't but seriously, every night all week this is what I think about.

Anyway, today I had my oatmeal and a fiber 1 bar before class, then an hour later (around noon) got some food on the way to class, and I'll probably get some food at school before I head to the office for a little. The problem is that at this point I only have 15 points left for the day and that makes me a little panicky. I usually have 20+ when I go home for the night, and today I'll probably have just enough for dinner and no snacking. I guess that's the point though, right?

I did run my 2nd day of C25K on Sunday and it went well again. Today is day 3, and I am trying to figure out when I will have time to run it. I should have gotten up to go before class but it just didn't happen. Hopefully I will be done in the office tonight by 6 or earlier and go. Otherwise, I don't have class tomorrow, but I do have weigh in and a meeting about my A paper, and then I have to finish all of my editing on the journal article so I can go to Phoenix on Thursday (a subject for another post). It will get done in the next 2 days though.

mmm sorry, it's been awhile!

so, i went a little food crazy during PMS time and gained 2 lbs. the next week i was still a little crazy the first half of the week but got shit under control and lost 1.6. so, i'm still up .4 from the last post, but i'm under 260 so i'm happy. and i have been doing well this week so far.

this morning i hit the gym, which i've been really bad about lately. just busy with school, not feeling well, stressed out, all kinds of excuses. but i started couch to 5k again today. i did it once right after i graduated college and got to like week 6 or so before i quit. so today was week 1, day 1, and it was surprisingly easy. i remember being miserable last time on the first day and not even thinking i could finish. that wasn't the case at all today, i felt like i could have done more. but i'm going to take it slow and do it right. looking forward to day 2 on sunday :)

whew, it has been awhile. this last week went well, i lost 1.8 lbs, bringing me down into the 250s! hurray! i did just eat a big, unhealthy dinner though... bleh... i was starving! now i don't feel so great.